do not test me when you have no idea of what i am capable of

its almost end of April..gosh..
time flies so fast, as fast as my heart beat each time i need to see my big boss.

FYI, [tho u might not want to know] im quite busy this week and i fill my time very wisely..

no more "secretly looking" at you-dont-need-to-know-who

or

at least i have no time to do that - hopefully only for this week.. =P


i have tons to tell but i dont know where to start


so far, this week [at least up until today] not only the busy week for me
but i would say the "heart breakingly confused" week for one named.. ME!

i never thought i would be in this position..NEVER! i repeat, NEVER!
maybe this is the week where MY CREATOR wants me to repay every single thing that i've done

i am very sure this is the punishment from God

and i've been waiting for this moment for a very long time

though it did make me want to slap my own face for being so foolishly blind,
at least i know i already paid what ever things that God want me to pay

we're even now - hopefully.

but.....

i never regret for every single things that i've done that might caused pain to others

because i believe things happen for a reason
and i have thousands of very dem good reasons.

and i am very sure God has millions of pretty good reasons to make me feel the way that i feel right now.


**he might think that im a gullible person, i thought so
she might think that im tough, i thought so - but i was wrong
you might think that im going to be fine, yes you are absolutely rite.