so long 2007...

Gosh! 2007 almost come to its end. Are we ready for the new adventure? Am I ready?

My 2007 was just as the same as my previous years. it’s the same thing; there are times im on top of the world and the next minutes,..hell! My year full of ups and downs but whether I like it or not I had to go thru wutever come before me. Maybe I handled things differently in 2007 – im not the same person as compared to few years back, in terms of my attitude and my maturity, ofcoz...

I just couldn’t believe how fast this year would end. I felt like it was just yesterday ( itu tipu..) I went to my teaching practicum in early january; having those kiddo calling me by the name of Miss Farah, cracked my head out thinking what to teach for the next lesson, traumatized by several other incidents in school. In a blink (tipu lagi..), last semester came and I have to deal with lots of quizzes, assignments and tons of presentations and wut not.. well, I was stress out in completing my thesis- still, I had fun (fun but stress) especially with my ex-classmates- enjoyed our last moment as students. however, I never tot I have to deal with this pain; leaving my ‘family’ in Section 17, living with memories, bitter sweet memories that I’ve collected for the past 5 years..especially in 2007. Its funny, im missing each and every1 of them. I nvr miss so many ppl at 1time in my life. funnily, I am, now.

In 2007, I also learn the true meaning of f/ship whereby friends are like stars. Eventho they are far away, but u always know that they are there. U just need to look up in the sky and you’ll see them and u know that they are always there. Meaning, we dun have to be with them every time. Its enuff knowing that they care and they are there for us. Tho, there are time I felt abandoned, ignored, isolated – but, they felt the same too. They tot Ive changed, and I tot they were the one who changed, but we all did, didn’t we? Anyhow, I love them so much and thanked them for treating me like sisters, helping me tru my difficulties and care.

I change my mind.

2007 is the best year ever.

1.1. I graduate

2.2. I make new friends who become my kewl great friends

3.3. Better life

4.4.i become more independent

5.5. i have more love

6.6. Tons of kewl, hot, great memories

I actually nvr have specific resolution, but I hope this coming new 2008 would bring so much fun, adventurous yet fun experience that would mold me as a great individual who can contribute to myself, my family, my religion and my nation. Meaning…. GREAT JOB WITH GREAT MONEY!

and…

Maybe lose a couple of kgs… hehe

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEEPS!!!!

wanna piece of me? ~~

hot, isn't it?

pjoy mok made it for me (requested by me lah...)

its so paris hilton and my shameless britney...

luuurrrrvvvveeeee it!

thx, PIMOK!

pemergian

Ikan gapi saya mati!

Pagi tadi sekor

Ptg tadi 3 lagi pergi meninggalkan saya keseorgan.

Ikan2 tersebut lah peneman setia ketika saya berchating.

Bagun pagi sy beri mereka makan

Ptg juga…

Sblm saya tidur kadang2…

saya sedih…

Tidak lagi!

Ayah ajak pegi beli ikan lain…

Saya beli ikan Emas!

RM1.80 sekor…

Saya beli 4 ekor; 2 hitam, 2 oren – ayah bayar.

Kini saya kembali ceria!

dissapointment

Merry Christmas – of course to all my Christians’ friends (if only you guys read this..heh).

Its almost new year, 2008. I’m turning 24 next year in October, and guess what? I still have no job! Isn’t that nice, peeps?

This morning..or should I say almost afternoon? (wutever..) I went to this restaurant with my parents, having our brunch. I noticed 1 figure that is familiar to me. She is a friend back in secondary school. I don’t remember her name since I’m not very good remembering people’s names. But I knew her. I am so sure that she doesn’t recognize me (I’m totally different person now - much presentable, maybe? =P ). she’s not really a friend, but schoolmate. I don’t remember talking to her back in school. If you curious, I was not an approachable person and I was a person who don’t mix with other people..(if u understand what I mean). But im not anymore…. =) And why am I typing this was because she drove a nice car…yes, a car and I assume that is her own car. I don’t know but my instinct said that was hers. That particular person was not a “student” if u understand me and I believe most teachers would never believe she’ll have what she have now, compared to me and my other friends…A JOB and money and to buy things like car, maybe? I come to know also that she has a pretty great job too! That makes me wonder, she didn’t even get into university and at 23 she seems comfortable with her life… and me? I drive car given by parents, jobless, RM60 in my purse and once again JOBLESS! Why should I waste my precious 5 years and at the end someone who didn’t even get 1 A in her SPM has a better life than mine? Am I complaining? Am I whining? Yes I am! yippy!!!!

You guys might think that I’m such ungrateful spoilt brat or whatever, but if you are in my shoes right now, you might feel the same! Why didn’t I just work after school and don’t bother to get into university and have to pay RM26000 debts to PTPTN ? Am I happy? I even have this thing in mind – im- gonna- get- my- master thingy when I don’t even know what I want at this point! I’m frustrated! I really am! dammit!

Its nothing, peeps… I called this self-reflection, maybe? And I wanna share it you~~ =)

goodbye, you.

i feel like cryin'.

thousand of reasons for my action.

i think i just wasting my freakin' time.

goodbye, you.

sisterhood of the travelling pants

hari ini hari sabtu.

setelah mengalami sangap pada hari jumaat, hari ini tidak lagi. aku telah ke OU untuk menonton National Treasure 2: The Book of Secret [ke salah tajuk tuh?] dgn seorg kawan [ye kawan.. =P ]. cerita yg menarik! sape yg minat nicholas cage seperti aku, must watch!

after the movie, me and a friend went to MPH. and i bought "The Second Summer of the Sisterhood". yeay! i loike! i started to like it since i watched the movie "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants". i tried to look for the book tapi tak jumpe...last2 i got it jugak..given by Pok ngah chachat last year [time kaseh pok ngah...]. so this time i bought it myself. ade 2 lagi siri buku ni..i cant wait to read this book that i bought, so that i can buy yg lagi 2 tuh..hehehe..yuppy!

i'll read this tunite!

cant wait to buy these two books!

doakan ayahku memberi duit saku padaku start dr hari isnin,ok?

nak baca buku..

tata~

hari ini hari jumaat

haluuuu...

hari ini merupakan hari kesangapan yg melampau2 buat diri ku. owh..sebelum itu, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kepada semua. berbalik pada apa yg aku katakan tadi, aku sangap. sangap atau kata lainnya adalh bosan tahap tak terkata. aku tatau mana dtgnya perkataan tersebut yg mana aku agak pasti tidak terkandung dalam kamus dewan, (jika ade, do tell me). kenapa aku sangap?
1. kerana aku tidak kemana2. hanya melepak dirumah dek kerana kesusutan nilai ringgit.

2. ayah aku ada urusan. so aku duduk2 sangap.

3. adik aku pon keje..tada org nk lawan cakap or main tendang mahupun bergaduh.

4. mak aku bz layan bunga2 dia.

mak aku sgt la suka bunga2 or pokok2 kat depan rumah aku tu. maybe dah takde kerja, so dr mak aku layan aku yg sedikit gila adalah lebih afdal dia tgk bunga2 dia tuh. i would say that my life sometimes is so boring. im not the one yg suka sgt keluar lepak2 mamak with friends and plus i have no friends pun yg suka lepak mamak like others la. shopping mall? i do like shopping mall. but lebeh menggemibrakan kalu pergi dgn mak dan ayah sbb i can buy something. with friends, hermmtgk waynag ok la..or layan bowling. but my parents disallowed me to go out hari2. its not like aku ni anak org kaye kan nk kluar hari2.. hehe

so, my typical day like this...

i wake up and take bath. depends kul baper aku bgun, if its early then ill have my breakfast. if its quite late aku just skip breakfast and wait until 12pm to have my lunch. then ill lepak2 tgk tv with my mom or online. then watch tv again and online again. or kalu mata aku bagai di gam2 ill take a nap and wake up at 5 and watch tv...itu je..sampai malam..boring isn't it?
if i have a pretty good mood, ill help my cook or if im so malas or mood tadak, aku akan tgk tv je...selalunya tadak mood masak la kan? hahahha..

so i do really need something to get my hand busy or something. aku nk keje...kenapa tada yg sangkut lagi eh?

dammit!

kebahagiaan

hari ini merupakan hari mengubirakan untuk aku. kenapa? pertama tama kalinya, aku dapat RM100 dlm masa 4jam. apakah yg aku lakukan? tiada byk tenaga diperlukan melainkan menghabiskan masa selama 4 jam dan mengorbankan jiwa raga kesangapan mendegr 800 lagu dan pilih sama ada ianya mengumbiarakan atau sebaliknya. aku telah di ajak oleh kawan kelas ku untuk menyertai survey untuk HITZ fm dan FLY fm. 800 lagu dimainkan ..bukan the whole lagu, cuma dlm masa few seconds and we have to cirle whether lagu suka di dgr, tidak pernah di dgr, sgt suka, bosan atau no komen. so i have to tick utk 800 lagu! sgt sangap but at the end of the day, i got rm100! thx hid sbb ajak gue!!!

apa yg mengumbirakan lagi aku telah membelanjakan separuh dr wang tersebut untuk belanja parents and adik aku makan. its the greatest feeling! eventho itu hnya separuh and tak seberapa, when you spent it for your family, rasa sangat gembira dan bangga bila kita dapat memberi sesuatu pada family...

dan lebey menggembirakan adalah............

pasukan bola sepak kegemaran ku MANCHESTER UNITED telah mengalahkan LIVERPOOL; 1-0. harap2 arsenal dikalahkan oleh chelsea..tapi mcm tak mungkin jer... seri pun jadilah! hak hak... no offense eh supporter LIVERPOOL...

kesimpulannya, hari ini hari yang membahagiakan... terima kaseh CARLITO!

tudung - kerja - saya = apakah?

Alhamdulillah, I am no longer a student. I got my result last week and I am quite pleased with the result. The most important thing is my status now is TAMAT. I was so relieved. And i am so happy coz i got A- for my thesis. berbayar jugaklah usaha aku! thank you Puan Leele.. =) akan ku kenang tunjuk ajar mu itu... *hugs*

I went to my skool this morning to get my mini transcript and official letter from the faculty. I am glad that everything is over. Now, all I have to do and worries me the most is finding a job. A job that is totally on the different path from my qualification. I am a tesl bachelor degree holder but my interest is not there! ive sent my resume here and there but tataulah..mcm mereka tak interested je..becoz the position that I applied mcm tak kena..=P I applied for Human Resource Executive, admin la, general clerk la or something like that la.. huhuhu and I am still waiting from SPA manalah tau kot2 panggil..tapi mcm takde byg pon… I am quite worry jugak since my other friends ade yg da panggil g interview..and ade yg dah start keje! Apakah? Apakah usaha aku tak cukup? Apakah?????? I need job!!!!!

Dun ask me why aku belajar tesl sedangkan aku tak suke teaching…ive answered this question many times…it was becoz I have no idea yg aku tak bley teaching! Its not like my SPM result sucks..SPM aku bagus, ok? I was so sick when ppl tot org amek tesl sbb SPM teruk! Dun u ever dare saying or even dare to think like that! Ppl choose tesl bcoz their passion for English! And teaching…not bcoz their spm result sucks ok?? I tot I can do dis, but after teaching practicum, I realized that I was not meant to be a teacher…but something else…so I wish and hope I can get something that I like! Pray for me too peeps!

i heard couple of people saying that "nk jadi PTD ni kena yg santek2 and kalu boleh dia tanak yg pakai tudung, rugged2" WT...? perlukah? i know that im not that pretty, but i know i can and i am qualified, ok? kenapa? org pakai tudung tak bley rugged? pakai tudung takleh bersama2 menjadi part of government ker? org pakai tudung tak boleh buat decsion? bagi pandangan? tak berkaliber? apa yg membezakan org pakai tudung and tak pakai tudung? anyone care to tell me?

anyhow, im still hoping that theres a chance for me, pagi duk test pun dah cukup ok, since i know the tests quite tuff and ade byk stage..but im willing to try and i wanna challenge myself...but if they dont let me and dont want to give me a try, their lost! i know that I AM GOOD!

but, now im desperately want a job, at least buang kebosanan inep..tulunnn....

mengetagged

i've been tagged. apakah yg aku buat salah sehingga d tag? hehe... since tada buat ape ni aku layannnn je la...

"The Rules:

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of your post and list their names (linking to them).

4. Let them know they’ve been tagged."

8 random facts about me.


1. Saya suke baju berwarna merah dan pink.
jika anda prihatin, anda akan selalu melihat saya didlm baju berwarna itup. sy ada bju yg sgt byk berwarna merah dan pink. bukanla kerana saya rasa kiut apabila memakai baju kaler pink atau merasa sgt berani ketika berbaju merah. tapi saya amat suke 2 kaler tersebut, tetapi merah tuh mungkin kerana saya suke MANCHESTER UNITED kot. tapi kaedahnye saya mmg menggemari 2 kaler tersebut.

2. saya jarang saket.
tetapi awas! jika saya jatuh saket seperti demam dan sebagainya ianya akan mengambila masa yg lama dan melarat2. jadi, mak dan ayah saya akan memestikan saya mengelakkn diri dari jatuh saket. (mcmmana tuh? adela rahsianya.... =P )

3. saya tidak suka durian.
saya benci bau durian. mcm bau kentot!

4. saya tak suka mandi laut, sungai atau air terjun.
benar! saya tidak suka. kerana saya amat benci nnt pasir2 masuk dlm poket seluar. saya benci apabila ianya terjadi. maka saya lebih selesa bermandi dirumah sahaja atau d swimming pool walaupun rambut sy akan mengeras dek klorin di kolam itu.

5. kulit saya sensitip terhadap lecak.
oleh itu saya akan elakkan keluar rumah apabila hujan kerana air hujan atas jalan tu akan menggatal2kan kaki saya. saya juga akan elakkan diri berada di tanah apabila balik kampong. bukan sbb saya anak org bandar atau tidak..tapi saya tidak berapa mengemarinya kerna kaki saya akan gatal2.

6. saya suka minum mineral water spritzer sahaja.
saya hanya akan minum mineral water berjenama spritzer sahaja. jgn tanya kenapa. sbb saya sendiri tidak tahu mengapa. dan di kepala katil saya akan ada at least sebotol air mineral ketika tidur. jika balik kampong atau tidur rumah sedara atau hotel. saya akan memastikan akan ade mineral water berhampiran saya supaya saya boleh minum ketika terbangun dtgh malam.

7. saya merupakan peminat setia Backstreet Boys dan NSYNC.
jgn gelak! benar. saya jatuh chenta dgn AJ Mclean (BSB) dan JC Chazes (NSYNC) hingga ke hari ini. saya hapal kesemua lagu2 mereka2 ini. sehingga kehari ini.

8. saya seorg yg kasar dan manja.
walaupun org mengatakan saya nmpk lembut, hakikatnya saya adalah seorg yg kasar. saya juga nmpk garang hakikatnya tidak la begitu sgt. apabila berbicara dgn rakan2 saya dgmbrkan seorg yg tegas dan kasar. namun, apabila anda tiada, saya amatlah mengada2 ketika berbicara dgn mak atau ayah saya dan juga adek terchenta saya. sehinggkan org lain menyangka sy merupakan anak bongsu. mak saya kata saya mengada2 yg kasar. bagaimanakah itup?


nk 8 je kan? igt nk bg 12 tadi..takpe..kita sambung dilain hari. saya nk tag sape plak nih mok? saya tiada rakan yg ramai di blog ini yg memungkinkn saya mengetag mereka. tapi saya cuba.

wahai org2 ini, anda di tagged oleh saya, ok?

1. bayahbayot.
2. farahayuni.
3. kittysyazana.
4. sejok.
5. abby.
6. tyaberrymore
7. JD kak Jah
8. Lucaka Djiwa.

out~

chocolate vs. me

chocolate...i guess its every1's fave. sape je dlm dunia ni yg tak suke chocolate? maybe org2 yg ade kencing manes ke, darah tinggi ke, org takut gemok je yg kadang2 jauhkan diri dr cokolate dan adek beradek mereka. owh..org2 yg takut tumbuh jerawat juga menjauhi chocolate. tahukah anda chocolate ni ade effect2 yg baik..cume kadar pengambilan tu yg membezakan antara baik dan buruknya memilih chocolate sebagai makanan sampingan. sebenarnye, coklat ni ada byk kebaikan nye seperti mengurangkan risiko sakit jantung and etc.

according to wikipedia.com:

" Recent studies have suggested that cocoa or dark chocolate may possess certain beneficial effects on human health. Dark chocolate, with its high cocoa content, is a rich source of the flavonoids epicatechin and gallic acid, which are thought to possess cardioprotective properties. Cocoa possesses a significant antioxidant action, protecting against LDL oxidation, perhaps more than other polyphenol antioxidant-rich foods and beverages. Processing cocoa with alkali destroys most of the flavonoids.^[23] Some studies have also observed a modest reduction in blood pressure and flow-mediated dilation after consuming approximately 100g of dark chocolate daily. There has even been a fad diet, named "Chocolate diet", that emphasizes eating chocolate and cocoa powder in capsules. However, consuming milk chocolate or white chocolate, or drinking fat-containing milk with dark chocolate, appears largely to negate the health benefit.^[24] Processed cocoa powder (so called Dutch chocolate), processed with alkali greatly reduces the antioxidant capacity as compared to "raw" cocoa powder. ^[25] Chocolate is also a calorie-rich food with a high fat content, so daily intake of chocolate also requires reducing caloric intake of other foods".

so sape kate chocolate tu tak bagus? ada kebaikan dia... mcm diriku ini, adalah pengemar chocolate...so dekat rumah aku akan sentiasa ada stock chocolate walaupun sikit. ayah and my cousins yg slalu travel akan belikan segala jenis chocolate yg aku suke sebagai ole2, umiyage la...selalunye dorg beli kat airport je pun, tapi janji ade. my fave are Cadbury Turkish Delight yg mana hanya ade kat airport2 or kat duty2 free kat langkawi ke, the zone mana2 la and hershes...

tapi ada yang kata badan aku ni makin bertambah2 besar oleh sebab akibat memakan chocolate yg terlampau. aku akan make sure makan aku makan at least 4 bar choclate setiap hari. tidakakh takut jerawat? tnya mereka... alah..tak makan cokolat pun berjerawat jugak..so apa salahnye makankan? aku dulu hangen tahap cipan la bila mereka menkondem aku sbb aku makan cokolat pastuh bising2 badan gemok...tapi semenjak cuti2 ni, aku tgk, aku makan kurang tapi badan maintain je mcm ni, maka aku percayalah bahawa ada kemungkinan besar ianya disebabkan cokolat...

benarlah kata pujangga:

"harimau mati meninggalkan belang, wawa gemok dsebabkan chocolate"

so, adakah aku akan meninggalkan tabiat aku ni?

korang rasa?

sekali berpengap terus berpengap

seperti yg di lihat di atas, itulah program yg mana saya dan rakan2 sepengakap anjurkan. pengalaman yg menarek setelah beberapa tahun meninggalkan dunia hutan rimba (yg tak berapa aku gemari sbnrnye). tap dek ajakan rakan2 dan perasaan bosan yg meluap2 di rumah, aku dgn gagah dan beraninye menyahut cabaran.. (sbb jadi fasilitator, kalau aku jadi peserta sumpah aku tak pegi!) pesertanya adalah budak2 berumur 11 hingga 24 tahun yang mana ada lebeh kurang 27 org (kot..) program 2 hari 1 mlm dan tak padat sgt sungguhla tak memenatkan sgt melainkan kemengantukan tahap maksim. tak boleh lawan time aku nk join pengakap kelana beberapa tahun lepas yg mana aku 1 1 nya peserta gadis ayu time tuh and kwn2 aku lain dah jadi ahli sebelom tuh (dorg ah heret aku neh!) dan menyebabkan aku berpaling tadah pada PBSM..sgt memenatkan dan mmg ngantuk tahap gaban yg takleh tahan2...budak2 yg pegi ni tak teruk mcm time aku dulu...huh! sgt tak adil! so tgk je la gmbr2 yg tak seberapa nih since i have no idea nk type ape kat sini...ngantuk..jemput meneliti gmbr yg dihidangkan... =P

muka "suci" tanpa krim, foundation dan juga compact pwder serta lipgloss

"kegembiraan buat gejet"

"kesunggehan mengaplikasi teknik lilitan buku silang, lilit ubi (??!!)"

campfire

abby: "ular itu ular, naga itu naga, ular itu naga, naga itu ular"

wawa: "wut da ...."
abby: (muke boring)

"..."

mari bergumbira!

~no comment~ =P

Pengakap Kelana -C Daerah Batu =)

eventho this is not the vacation of my dream, but it doesn't matter anymore as long as i'm with my closest great buddies... =)