june is leaving soon. july will come in no time

i want so many things is life. especially now; after being a young career woman with little income of my own.

new clothes
new shoes
new handbags
new shoes
more new shoes and
more new clothes (especially since i gain few kgs these days)

and i want him too

yet i have doubts;

if he is what i need

do we really need 'us'

he may thinks about it as well. maybe. i never ask. i never will. he never tell.

maybe i need time to breathe.

he may need it too.

because i feel suffocated. he is, too. maybe. because i am.

i am waiting not-so-patiently for june's salary.

my baby, hang in there. mama will come and buy you.




*** i'm sorry for me.