a waiter will never be a waiter forever...she may want to be a singer

people said that to be in or fall in love is madness, the scariest thing would happen to you.

as for me,

yes,

madness.
it is scary.
it hurts.
it will make you happy and sad at the same time.
makes you want to smile always
calm...
and want to cry the next seconds
want to be close yet want to be very far from that person.
do not afraid to be who you are
say what you want to say
...with hope that he/she takes you as you are

i believe i have found that feeling...
i believe he takes me just for who i am
as i take him as who he is


people said that i am hopelessly in love

yes, i do.

one lady whom i consider as my good friend said just now,

"tabah sungguh kawan aku sekarang"

yes, babe. i am tabah.
i know what i want now.
yet,
does he knows what he wants now?

call me stupid, call me blind, call me retarded, call me whatever...

i am willing to wait. as i am a 'waiter'

but i have told you (yes, YOU - the one i LOVE) once, and i will say it once again,

"....i dunno when will i change my mind. it can be tomorrow, it can be next year, it can be never. hold me and embrace me while im still want to wait...do not afraid to let me down, as we never know what will come before us. maybe its not you who will crushed my heart into pieces, it can be the other way around...even if it is written that my heart will be broken into pieces by you, i believe theres somebody out there will mend it later.........."


pssst....."Happy Birthday...."



p/s: ok..aku merapu.