sejak ku bertemu pada mu..

sejak minggu lepas aku mula baca benda yang aku sepatutnya baca dari mula aku terima bungkusan keramat itu.

tapi aku degil! aku suka lengah2..

akibatnya?

korang pun tahukan akibat orang baca utk exam last2 minutes? nama module ni pun dah mental2 kan aku...walaupun fundamental shj, utk manusia yg tidak ahu apa2 mengenai financial selain menguruskan duit sendiri (itu pun slalu tersasar budget) amatlah me"mental'kan

sesungguhnya aku redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi kalau Dia katakan aku Fail. sebab aku mmg sudah bersedia utk re-sit paper ni dengan membayar bayaran tambahan.
kiranya aku lulus, aku save duit itu utk tgk wayang 10 kali di Midvalley. atau membelanja 9 org termasuk diriku menonton cerita susuk.




aku still marah dengan hamidah. kenapa dia buat aku macam ni? kenapa? aku jaga dia dengan kasih sayang yangtak berbelah bahagi. aku tatang bagai minyak yang penuh. tangki frankie pun tak penuh seperti kasih sayang yang aku berikan pada hamidah. tapi dia buat aku gini. dia saja2 nak mainkan perasaan aku. buat aku marah. buat aku cuak. jikalau aku dilahirkan sebagai seorang anak seorg businessman, mmg dah lama dah hamidah ni...ish! mok cik maghah ni!



***isnin ni aku compom. dah 6 bulan aku bersama syarikat ni. aish!

kalau aku kata aku benci, maknanya mmg aku benci.

aku kadang-kadang tak berapa nak paham.
kenapa tiap kali aku ada komputer je; tak kesah la Notebook ke PC ke, mesti rosak.
aku betul-betul tak paham.

aku ni dah la jenis yang conscious gile bendasing2 yang masuk dalam lappy aku, tapi adee juga bendasing itu.

nak kata aku download porno (mcm ngah) tak pernah rasa nya.
paling teruk pun aku tgk gambar ronaldo tak pakai baju je.

takkan itu punca dia.

as korang tau, aku hntr hamidah (lappy aku) kat ngah last month kot. sekembalinya dia ke pangkuan aku, takde benda yang aku buat pun selain berchtting dan dolot winamp ngn AVG je (sbb ngah tak buh benda tuh..)

tup tup,

dah 2 hari tak boleh on. keluar lagi screen2 biru yang bodoh yang bagi aku cuak sampai nak menangis.

sometimes aku rasa nk salahkan org yang bertanggungjawab membeli lappy tersebut utk aku sbb buat keputusan tanpa aku tau. tapi bila aku pikir2 balik, ayah do the best to make me happy. kalau aku ada anak, aku tak rasa aku nk bagi duit segedebuk gitu je nk beli notebook utk anak aku berpoya2 chatting cari jodoh atau buat blog kasik org ramai baca.. nk beli sendiri. tapi inilah yang aku puji ayah ku nan satu itu.

tapi aku rasa takde kena mengena pun dgn kes ayah beli Notebook ni kat org yang kencing ayah aku ni, sbb dulu2, seingt aku, aku dah pernah ade 3PCs and 1 lappy nan satu yang mana aku beli sendiri guna duit PTPTN, semua pun lingkup. Hard drive corrupt la, mother board la..ntah apa2 ntah. aku pun tak paham. aku benda rosak je mmg takde makna dah dalam idup aku. aku pikir nak buang je.

tapi hamidah ni lain. aku rasa saya close dgn dia dan aku sgt sedey bila dpt tau dia mcm ala2 rosak sikit. aku dah buat yang terdaya. kalau betul dia rosak, aku pun tatau nk cakap apa dah. maybe aku bukan di lahirkan utk memegang benda2 yang sebegini complicated. maybe aku should pegang kuali dengan periuk je. itu pun belom tentu lagi dia tak kemek ke rosak ke apa lagi. maybe tangan aku sgt busok!

***aku baru habis chat dgn Tyler org HP..dia suh aku buat Hard Drive Test dan keputusan nya Hard Drive aku tak rosak. dia suruh aku baiki OS. kejadahnye weh???

at the cutting edge

"measure FTE"
"100 million"
"capital reserve"

"profit ranking"
"balance capital requirement"
"market value"

for me those words sound so boring and i felt like slapping my own face during the meeting.

im not interested to hear those.not interested is one thing. i dun even know what they were talking about!

yet, i need to.

FYI, i was the one in my class who hate math and economics and whatever things related to the family.

i hate math. i really am.

but now, im dealing with figures , indirectly.

can u imagine, i, me, gonna sit for Fundamental of Financial Planning end of this month? and there are 6 other financial planning thingy modules need to be attended and have to sit for the papers

and guess what?

IM GOING TO TEACH THOSE!!!!

figures babes,figures...numbers..calculator...present value, future value.

dem!!!!!!

now, im like..reading books like FINANCIAL FREEDOM,
working with those financial analysis tools..

i dunno who i am now.

im confused!

im not myself anymore.

GOD!

please God, bring back the old me.

***can i just be a singer?

I need a new lappy

emailing branch heads is always my job.period.

aku blogging dari ofis.

lately aku rasa hidup aku sgt depress. kerja makin byk and aku rasa tak boleh nk catch-up.

admin work : projects with datelines

training : i need to read books. and bare with whatever complains yang akan sampai ke pengetahuan bos.

itu yang lebih buat aku stress.

i dont like to look stupid.

aku dah baca and paham.

but to convey the info or msges. aku tak confident.

lebih-lebih ada kes mcm2 la.

kisah org cucuk2 belakang. main sampai2 cerita kat bos. tambah-tambah kelas kat KL.

guess what?

kelas aku rabu and khamis ni..kat KL.

kelas hari khamis adalah kelas pertama Fundamental of Biz. Insurance utk aku conduct.

tau pulak aku byk2 pasal biz. insurance?

i can tell everybody info yg technical.

but if u ask me beyond my capability, i might need to 'tai chi' back the questions.

and thats scares me!

aku nk cari kerja lain la weh!!!!!!!!!!


***i hate this particular person. feel like slapping her face hard.

siapa kata aku tak syg adik aku?

kalau 5 1/2 dulu, aku yang keluar menuntut ilmu, sekarang giliran adek kesygn aku. aku dulu dekat je. everyweek pun balik. adik aku lain.

tadi adek aku mendaftar kat UniKL, Lumut,Perak. amek kejadah ape ntah engineering technology in ship design. belasah sahajalah. panas gile seyh situ. hostel dia agak ok. katil dia seperti katil adek aku dirumah. dia suka.


sekarang, takde la org yang aku nk suruh buat itu ini. aku akan sunyi.

mak aku pun dah takde member nk bawak gaduh. sebab adik aku suka merayap dan suka buat mak aku risau. tambah. dia suka lawan cakap ngn mak aku bikin mak aku panas hati. (tak macam aku, baik.)







***time aku on hamidah, mak aku terpandang lappy adek aku kat atas meja. dia nangis. teringat kat adek aku. baru bape jam je. aku pun terpaksa mengalir air mata skali. rindu zarul!

i never like torres anyway...

Who will you be with Saturday night?
• mi familia.

2. What woke you up this morning?
• my alarm, of course. hate it!

3. If you took a drug test would you pass it?
• clean and clear. eh pg tadi minum nescafe. drug ke tu ha?bukan eh?

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good night?
• yeszaa...

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
• mummy. thats a must before i go to work.

6. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
• ayah, zarul and mak. g amek hamidah dr ngahaha.

7. How many myspace accounts do you have?
• dh terminate.

8. What was your first thought this morning?
• bila nk hr sabtu nih?

9. Do or did you like school?
• i did!

10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
• ermm...donno. maybe? no?

11. Where would you like to live?
• near menara MAA. so that i dont have to wake up early to go to work. i hate working! but i want money...

12. Do long distance relationships work?
• nope. never!

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
• my ambitious was to be a doctor and a singer! =p

14. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
• the same person who about to turn 29, married to an engineer with 2 kids. whos the engineer? To Be Advised.

15. Who is your number one friend ?
• everyone is no 1.

16. Who do you wish you were with right now?
• either C. Ronny or Cesc Fabregas?

17. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
• on fster? its either Tya love or Kak Jah a.k.a Jaja

18. How often do you log in to friendster?
• everyday! kalu tak aku akan demam.

19. Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?:
• IM. period.

20. How many car accidents have you been in?
• tak pernah dan tidak mahu ianya terjadi. simpang malaikat.

21. Do you listen to music every day?
• Yup

22. Do you still go trick or treating?
• i dun celebrate halloween. ke ada maksud laen nih?

23. What was the last thing you ate?
• nasi briyani di mamak salman shah.

24. Are you a fast typer?
• depends. kalau marah, kinda fast. with so many typo. huhuhu

25. How many speeding tickets do you have?
• zero. hebat bukan?

26. What are you doing tonight?
• tgk CSI selepas berchatting dgn rakan.

27. If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?
• sikat rambut. dah lama tak sikat ni.

28. Is anything bothering you?
• nope.

29. Do you miss someone?
• nope. <--- tak tipu. sebab rindu ramai org!

30. What do you want to do right now?
• lari dalam guni sambil bwk bola?

31. Are you listening to music right now?
• nope.

32. Are you in a good mood?
• kinda. coz my hamidah is with me now!

33. What are you doing this weekend?
• going back to atok's and send my lil bro to UniKL, Perak.

34. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
• yup. Horatio.

35. When were you the saddest in your life?
• when i failed to get what i want.

36. Do you own more than one cell phone?
• nope. i miskin. tak mcm ngah.

37. Do you use EBay to buy or sell?
• no. takde crdt card mcm ngah.

38. What makes you mad?
• traffic lite turns to red. demmit!

39. Have you ever had a song written about you?
• ada! hahahaha...

40. Have you ever sang in public?
• yup

41. What songs make you happy?
• njit njit semut & di mana dia anak kambing saya.

42. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
• bunyi kipas? aman dan damai je rasanya. seperti di tepi pantai di hawaii.

43. Do you have a job?
• ya. pemotostat yang berjaya.

44. What does your ipod have in it right now?
• tak mampu beli.

45. How many close friends do you have?
• 1, 2, 3, 4 ----

46. What makes you happy?
• window shopping.

47. One wish?
• please promote me as a manager with RM10K salary.

48. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
• been there, done that.

49. Next concert?
• sudah lama tidak pergi ke konsert. dan tak tau apa next concert.

50. Name one song that explains your current life.
• bapaku pulang dari kota dan aku burung tiong.

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